Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

christianity and what we do about it

Or rather, what we don't do about it.

As you probably already know, I occationally wax theological on here. 

You're also probably familiar with the fact that I go to a Christian school. 

However.

Just because it's a Christian school doesn't mean that every single kid there is a Christian like I am. 

It doesn't mean that at all.

I have friends who aren't Christians.  I have enemies that aren't Christians.  I simply just know of kids who aren't Christians. 

So we're all in chapel (ever wednesday after first period, if you were wondering) and singing "Mighty to Save."

And we sing the chorus:


Saviour, He can move the mountains,

My God is Mighty to save,

He is Mighty to save

....and then I'm suddenly aware that tears are streaming down my face and ruining my makeup.  In school.  Joy.  But tears because there's people---friends, classmates, the kid I'm kinda scared of---and they're not saved and really, to be frank, where would they be going if they died tomorrow? 

Yeah, morbidity, but trying to prove a point here. 

And thinking now, it's not just those three or four people.  It's millions around the world---there may be three going through my mind, but there's so many. 

But back to the few that I'm crying about.  Why am I just crying and ruining my makeup in the audatorium at school at things the guys on stage---no less the same stage I'm going to be taking measurements on in musical theatre class four hours later on---and not DOING something?! 

I mean, sure, I've *tried* to bring it up a little with my friends who aren't Christians, but I only came to this school three months ago, and really, people you're barely just friends with aren't the people you can start preaching to.  I'd be like shoving asparagus down the mouth of someone who hasn't really ever tried asparagus and isn't really brave enough to try asparagus yet. 

I mean, you could always put sugar on the asparagus, but then it's sugared asparagus, and doesn't that sound even worse than just asparagus. 

You can't really sugar-coat Christianity either. 

But seriously, what'shoulda girl like me do?!  I mean, I have trouble talking about almost anything, let alone Christianity.  I mean, that's a big deal.  I don't want to mess it up. 

But in basic fact: I'm just... I don't have a word for it.  Asparagus, maybe.  I dunno.  What I'm trying to say is that I haven't really done anything that I know I should do because I'm scared.  Scared that I won't get Christianity to my friend in a way that will make sense to her.  Scared...well just SCARED of another kid who I know needs Christ.  And then scared of asking another Christian friend to help me tell this kid I'm scared of because of STUPID HOMECOMING DRAMA. 

STUPID HOMECOMING DRAMA.  I mean, how lame is that?!  Being a wuss about spreading the gospel because of HOMECOMING DRAMA.  I really need to rethink my priorities. 

And another thing is not wanting to sound conceited and stuff, like: "my religion is better than yours so I'm going to shove it down your throat and make you believe it..."

Of course, there's a few more important factors that I'm not going to address here, cuz this is the INTERNET, people, and who knows how many kids from school are reading this due to a few obscure links on facebook + way too much time on their hands to mess around on the computer.

Facebook + too much time.  You can find just about anything about just about anyone with that deadly combo.

But I digress. 

Please pray---for these kids, but even more for me and the other Christian kids on campus.  I say for the rest of us because really, we can't just JUST pray for our unsaved classmates---that's asking God for something and then going "yeah have fun doing that God cya later i'ma gonna go do my own thing now."  Pray most that we'll be able to reach out.  Especially me---that I'll stop being scared to talk to my Christian classmates about this rising issue--and especially that I won't CRY while asking them.  Because that's how this effects me.  (one guess who's nearly crying right now?)  So we'll be able to reach out together as a Christian community to those who haven't come to know the Lord personally. 

Because really, we have no excuses. 

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

=)

quote I found:

"There are three guys in a girl's life:
The one she loves,
The one she hates,
and the one she can't live without.
And in the end,
they're all the same guy."

So true.  Someday, I'll expand on why.  (Add that to the list of thing I've promised to write on)

Of course, they're other guys too, but there's always that one.  Who of course at age sixteen I haven't found yet. 

But hey!  I've always got my brother's arm to walk into homecoming dance on.

No, really. 

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

hey look, school started but i'm still posting something!

...but it's going to be really short.

So, have you ever noticed that all the real famous 'teen heartbeats' or whatever all have THESE initials?!

JB

 I mean, look at it, it's more uncanny that the fact that Taylor Swift always seems to be dating the current mega "teen heartbeat:" (what?  That's true too!)

The Jonas Brothers (okay, they aren't as popular as they used to be, but bear with me)

Jacob Black (rawr wolfie)

Justin Bieber (uh, nothing to say here.)


I mean, seriously.  If I just renamed Peter something that had the initials JB, suddenly my book would be super-popular.  Especially if I added in some werewolves and vampires.  Or maybe vampwolves.  But seriously, ugh.

But then, I did get another suggestion for what I should rename Peter:

Justin Jonas.

I mean, Peter's name is already totally overrated for a teen fantasy fiction, but I think I prefer "Peter" to "Josh Blackthorne" or something. 

Remind me to post about Justin Bieber sometime.  And before you ask, I do NOT have "Bieber Fever" or whatever.  I mean, that doesn't even rhyme!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

changes yes/no (second choice invalid!)

Okay, so it's all about changing right now.  I'm sixteen, getting my driver's license, going to Real School (tm) for the First Time Ever, being the only girl on an all-guys cross country team, all that. 

So, with all that, I'm probably going to change my blog's URL shortly, just because it's SO HARD TO FIND. 

Seriously, what was I thinking?  In FRENCH?  I mean, I'm taking spanish, not FRENCH. 

Yo esta loca. 

So it'll change pretty soon, and if that messes up the people who are following this thing, I'm really sorry! 

But just like with all those other changes, it hasn't happened just quite yet. 

Friday, August 13, 2010

Thirteen

1. Today is Friday
2. The thirteenth
3.  So I'm doing a 13 list a la Emily the Strange
4.  Who, by the way, is totally awesome, like Hello Kitty for junior highers or something
5.  Especially in her YA book series
6. Speaking of literature, I can't stand fanfiction but I love fanart
7. Something must be wrong with me
8. Further testimony to this fact is that I love getting vocabulary in school since it gives me words to use in my novel---really good ones
9. Which is going pretty well, by the way
10. Though draft six will not be done this summer because school starts in TWO WEEKS
11.  Eeeeeeps!
12.  So scary!
13.  Wish me luck, because Emily sure won't be:

Saturday, August 7, 2010

hey i'm alive really

hey, so I know this isn't getting updated a lot, but I CAN say that I DO have photos, which may or may not be posted, of everything from trips to Seattle to random manga of my characters to room remodels.   

But I have excuses. 

1.  I'm a teenager.
2. It's summer.
3. I'm saving up my motives to do anything even vaguely hard until September when school starts when EVERYTHING will be hard.
4.  The above photo is the best I got all summer, anyhow.  Sun hair!
5.  So basically it all comes down to that I'm a slacker.


Go me.  

Monday, August 2, 2010

harry potter happiness

Me: You can't read book three!!  You haven't finished book two yet!  NO NO NO NO NO NO NO

Wesley: ...

Mom: What's going on up there?

Me: Moooooooom, he's reading book three before book two!  He's ruining the Harry Potter...Happiness!!!


FAIL. 

(but he's reading book two now)

Friday, July 30, 2010

16

1. As of yesterday I am sixteen.

2. It really stinks when only two of your friends remember your birthday.

3. It really, really stinks when you know as almost-fact that one of those friends only knew because of facebook birthday updates. 

4.  I'm hopelessly obsessed with The Chronicles of Vladimir Tod. 

5. Like, crazy-sick-obsessed. 

6. Like, more-than-the-Hunger-Games obsessed. 

7.  I'm so excited for the final concluding book in september that I can hardly stand it.

8. The book is titled Twelfth Grade Kills.

9. That title really suggests something scary in store for Vlad. 

10. I don't want Vlad to die!!!

11.  I dunno if I'm Team Meredith or Team Snow.

12.  I keep on thinking Team Meredith.

13.  Speaking of Meredith, I bought shimmery mascara.

14. I'm scared to wear it.  Maybe to homecoming though.

15.  I kinda doubting I'll get invited to homecoming, which scares me.

16.  So now I'm scared that I'm getting older, that Vlad will die, and that I'll be pummelled to a pulp in highschool next year.

Gotta love being sixteen.  Such a lovely, pessemistic year. 

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

list of fictional crushes

...cuz my brother asked me to.

1. Ronald Weasley. 
'Nuff said.
2. Draco Malfoy
But only after book 6; before that he was a total jerk.
3. Peter Godfrey
Well, this was before the advent of ANOTHER character...
4. Edward Elric
Yup, totally pwns the more famous Edward Cullen
5. Fang
Okay, if you're a teenage girl and you've read maximum ride, you are LYING to yourself if you haven't had a fictional crush on Fang.
Yup.  I'm a FANGirl.
6. HL
Okay, so this was who pwned Peter. 

Poor Peter.

Shocked yet, Neddy?

To be continued. 

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I'm alive... oh... I'm alive, really really!

HEY.  So I totally haven't updated this, but I have an excuse I've been too sick to even go running for like TWO WEEKS now.  Torture.

So let's do the facebook thing (what's on your mind?)

And it's too long to post on facebook.

So,

1.  I got into all the classes I wanted to get into next year at my new school

2.  Which means I have AP pre-work during the summer

3.  Which thankfully isn't that hard, if confusing

4.  Whoa.  Was the above confusing?

5.  Speaking of confusing, I've entered twilight territory TWICE in the past week

6.  Edward's volvo in the New Moon movie should be silver, not black.

7.  That shouldn't bug me, but it does.

8.  Someday I will finish my book and when the movie is made, I'll insist they don't make major mistakes

9.  But before making movies I at least need to do theater

10.  THE MUSICAL THEATER TEACHER AT MY NEW SCHOOL USED TO BE ON THE CAST OF THE CHICAGO PRODUCTION OF "WICKED!"

11.  Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks!

12.  I did not scream the above out loud during my meeting with a member of the school staff

13.  Or at least not loudly

14.  I just got a copy of  The Hunger Games

15.  Gale or Peeta??

16.  DON'T ANSWER THAT!

17.  Is is wrong that I really, really am more excited to read the Chronicles of Vladimir Tod than The Hunger Games?

18.  Is is wrong that I'm even going to read the Chroncles of Vladimir Tod since I'm NOT a thirteen-year-old boy?

19.  Too bad I don't have any friends except the imaginary ones like Ron, Harry, and Vlad to invite to my 16th birthday party

20.  Is there such thing as sweet 17?  So can I do it up then?

21.  And most importantly, can I please oh please get better so I can go running again?

Friday, July 2, 2010

20Q

DO YOU HAVE A MACBOOK?
No, I have a PC.

DID YOU KNOW THAT LIPSTICK IS DYED WITH A TYPE OF BUG?
Yes; that's why I don't wear it. 

DO YOU WEAR MAKEUP?
Very little.  Lipgloss, cuz that's not made of bugs. 

DID YOU SEE ECLIPSE YET?
No, not yet.

IS THAT FIRE REAL?
No, it's fake; but don't touch it because while it won't burn you it's still probably hot.

WHY DO YOU NEVER EVER EAT SNACK?
It might have gotten in contact with chocolate. 

WHY CAN'T YOU EAT CHOCOLATE?
I'm allergic.

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU EAT IT?
I get really sick.  Like the flu, but more painful.

CAN I TELL ALL THE OTHER KIDS THAT YOU'RE ALLERGIC?
Hey, you didn't ever ask me that one!

DID YOU KNOW YOUR EARRING IS KINDA SIDEWAYS?
No?  I guess I should fix it.

DID YOU LIKE THE PENGUIN BRACELET I GAVE YOU YESTERDAY?
Yes, it was very purple!

WILL YOU OPEN MY WATER BOTTLE?
Sure.

WILL YOU OPEN MY WATER BOTTLE?
As soon as I finish this other one.

WILL YOU OPEN MY WATER BOTTLE?
As soon as I finish these other two.

CAN I HOLD THE SIGN?
Sure, that way I don't have to!

CAN WE SIGN YOUR SHIRT NOW?
Sure, let me kneel down to you all's level...

DO I HAVE TO WEAR MY NAMETAG?
Yes.

ARE YOU ACTUALLY GOING TO MAKE ME WEAR IT?
No.

DO I HAVE TO GET WET IN GAMES?
If I can help it, no.

CAN WE ALL TICKLE YOU?
No!  But I know you all will do it anyway...

...

As you've probably already figured out, I was a VBS leader for the past week.  Of course, I didn't have a lot of trouble until the last quarter-hour of the last day, when I had a kid picked up early during closing ceremony and I couldn't find his take-homes.  Of course, I couldn't make it up to the stage with the rest of my group, so once I found aforesaid hand-outs I stood by the side and watched my group.  One was talking to the other leaders during performance, which I wasn't overly worried about.  Next thing I know she's gone and some little girl is being carried outside.  Then I go into complete panic mode and I realize that one of the camper's I'M in charge of. 

Time for evasive action.

I run across the church, way too fast, hoping nobody will care.  I don't have the greatest tract record, you know.  I practically lunge out the door, and onto the grass, where a conglomeration of leaders and parents are clustered.

"IS SHE OKAY?!?!"  I'm so nervous I'm nearly crying and totally freaking out.   

Everyone looks pretty conserned, but she's coming to.  Her mom says she did this back in April.  Talk about nurse's offices and doctors and since you're the leader, what did she eat, so I can tell the doctor?

"Um, chocolate grahm crackers.  And licorice.  And froot loops (wow this is starting to sound bad).  And fishy crackers.  And sugar gummies.  Did I let her have too much sugar?  OH and she had pretzels and marshmallows and crackers in Bible Adventure..."  Kill me now, I obviously let the kid have way too much sugar...

"She also had a smoothie for breakfast..." her mom says.

I get sent back to watch the other kids, but I'm in complete panic mode.

What a crumby way to end VBS, huh?  Went out with a bang...

the story of my life.  I think I'll just blame my imaginary nemisis Steve. 

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

THINGS I WISH I'D DONE BEFORE I QUIT HOMESCHOOLING

1.  Not shown up the day before halloween wearing a totally lame witch costume
2.  Primped in the morning instead of plowing through even more homework before leaving for school
3.  Not burst into tears when I thought my english teacher was going to kill me
4.  Remembered assignment to avoid aforesaid problem
5.  Stood up in study hall and screamed out that I loved Harry Potter and didn't care who knew it  (okay, not really)
6.  Taken those stealth shots of, well, everyone, before I left
7.  Then posted them on facebook to see who killed me
8.  Found out who was Team Edward and who was Team Jacob
9.  Found out who was Team Jacob before New Moon: The Movie
10.  Majorly broke the dress code at least once
11.  Actually did something with people when they asked me to
12.  Made everyone read "Stargirl"
13.  Brought up the subject of Harry Potter just to hear people gasp in horror
14.  Tried to explain how absolutely wonderful cross country is to everyone
15.  Worn something nicer than tees and jean cutoffs more than a dozen times
16.  Talked to a certain crush
17.  Convinced my brother to bring a boombox to school and dance to "Do the Hippogriff" with me.  During lunch.  On the field.  And then watched people's jaws drop. 
19.  Remembered to actually wear lipgloss
20.  Spent more time flashing my perfect nails in people's faces
21.  Totally bugged the people who might come to the same Real School as me next year
22.  Quoted Harry Potter, Jane Eyre, or Shakespeare as much as possible
23.  Worn my acidic green converse at least once
24.  Made and worn a "HARRY POTTER RULZ" tee
25.  Tried to use the 'logic' from the 'logic class' in my freshman year
26.  Flaunted my second-semester inklings A+ grade 
27.  Not totally gummed up my spanish oral report
28.  Not nearly barfed while chopping up The Frog in biology
29.  Not woke up every morning at six to a truly awful JB alarm (via my cellphone)
30.  Not shoved everyone away because, really, they didn't deserve that

Friday, June 18, 2010

finally summer


SUMMER. 

And I am NOT a HSM fan, but whatever. 

Sunday, June 13, 2010

One more week of school

...and then I'll be free.

and done with homeschooling for, hypothetically, the rest of my life.

and on to Regular School next year, my junior year.  Whoooooooooooooooa. 

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

the photos which were supposed to go on facebook...


That is, before my account was hacked or something.  Ironic how I get my camera back from the Disneyland lost 'n' found but then can't post the photos anyway?

Murphy's law.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

disneyland

Told'ya I'd get my camera back.  Go having your name/phone on your electronics.
...my brother, doing the Star Trek sign in front of a giant carrot....and ned...and roo, and wesley's hat...and my hand---the nail polish is my new summer thing---gone are the blacks and pinks of winter; I fully intend to have my nails painted Mad Colors all summer.  So far, everyone but my grandmother and my friend's younger sister have thought that I am NUTS.  Alice and Wonderland, which of course is madly popular after the movie came out.  I haven't seen it yet.  If ever.seeing a pattern?  Us as shoe-wearers---my little sis is flip-flops all the way, I'm converse, and the rest of the fam, including ned who isn't in the pic, wear running shoes, which I resolutely refuse to wear except for during cross-country....in case you're wondering, the pics were taken on two different days---I lost my camera five seconds in the first time, then got it back, but hey, less than a week difference.  we tried out those weird canoes.  Uh, not for those with coordination/bad joints.  (that would be me, FYI).  Also, those boats are oh-so-totally motor powered.  Sooooo obvious.  This kid loooooves pickles.  And explorer vests, and Mountain Dew hats.   Peace, Trek, and DynamiteThe.  Leaves.  Are.  Shaped.  Like.  Hearts.  Awesome.braces...And TrekY'wanna know what's sad?  We don't even WATCH Star Trek, I forgot who Spock was (but I think he's the one with the awful eyebrows), and is the Enterprise good or bad?  ..."Watching Trek" is on the summer to-do list.how can he wear these things and look halfway decent?  ...is it because he's awesome?  I think it's because he's awesome.And TrekWes tries do the Trek sign... uh, leave that up to Nate.  And Spock, whoever he is.... =PI am on the ride.  I'm behind Ned.  See?  And I look pretty weird... Wes and PoohConfettiLook, Peter Pan and Wendy