christianity and what we do about it

Or rather, what we don't do about it.

As you probably already know, I occationally wax theological on here. 

You're also probably familiar with the fact that I go to a Christian school. 

However.

Just because it's a Christian school doesn't mean that every single kid there is a Christian like I am. 

It doesn't mean that at all.

I have friends who aren't Christians.  I have enemies that aren't Christians.  I simply just know of kids who aren't Christians. 

So we're all in chapel (ever wednesday after first period, if you were wondering) and singing "Mighty to Save."

And we sing the chorus:


Saviour, He can move the mountains,

My God is Mighty to save,

He is Mighty to save

....and then I'm suddenly aware that tears are streaming down my face and ruining my makeup.  In school.  Joy.  But tears because there's people---friends, classmates, the kid I'm kinda scared of---and they're not saved and really, to be frank, where would they be going if they died tomorrow? 

Yeah, morbidity, but trying to prove a point here. 

And thinking now, it's not just those three or four people.  It's millions around the world---there may be three going through my mind, but there's so many. 

But back to the few that I'm crying about.  Why am I just crying and ruining my makeup in the audatorium at school at things the guys on stage---no less the same stage I'm going to be taking measurements on in musical theatre class four hours later on---and not DOING something?! 

I mean, sure, I've *tried* to bring it up a little with my friends who aren't Christians, but I only came to this school three months ago, and really, people you're barely just friends with aren't the people you can start preaching to.  I'd be like shoving asparagus down the mouth of someone who hasn't really ever tried asparagus and isn't really brave enough to try asparagus yet. 

I mean, you could always put sugar on the asparagus, but then it's sugared asparagus, and doesn't that sound even worse than just asparagus. 

You can't really sugar-coat Christianity either. 

But seriously, what'shoulda girl like me do?!  I mean, I have trouble talking about almost anything, let alone Christianity.  I mean, that's a big deal.  I don't want to mess it up. 

But in basic fact: I'm just... I don't have a word for it.  Asparagus, maybe.  I dunno.  What I'm trying to say is that I haven't really done anything that I know I should do because I'm scared.  Scared that I won't get Christianity to my friend in a way that will make sense to her.  Scared...well just SCARED of another kid who I know needs Christ.  And then scared of asking another Christian friend to help me tell this kid I'm scared of because of STUPID HOMECOMING DRAMA. 

STUPID HOMECOMING DRAMA.  I mean, how lame is that?!  Being a wuss about spreading the gospel because of HOMECOMING DRAMA.  I really need to rethink my priorities. 

And another thing is not wanting to sound conceited and stuff, like: "my religion is better than yours so I'm going to shove it down your throat and make you believe it..."

Of course, there's a few more important factors that I'm not going to address here, cuz this is the INTERNET, people, and who knows how many kids from school are reading this due to a few obscure links on facebook + way too much time on their hands to mess around on the computer.

Facebook + too much time.  You can find just about anything about just about anyone with that deadly combo.

But I digress. 

Please pray---for these kids, but even more for me and the other Christian kids on campus.  I say for the rest of us because really, we can't just JUST pray for our unsaved classmates---that's asking God for something and then going "yeah have fun doing that God cya later i'ma gonna go do my own thing now."  Pray most that we'll be able to reach out.  Especially me---that I'll stop being scared to talk to my Christian classmates about this rising issue--and especially that I won't CRY while asking them.  Because that's how this effects me.  (one guess who's nearly crying right now?)  So we'll be able to reach out together as a Christian community to those who haven't come to know the Lord personally. 

Because really, we have no excuses.